1. I've made the decision to stay in China about five weeks longer than I originally planned to. A lot of things went into that decision. Some complicated reasons, some simple. Travel, finances and even a bit of fear fueled this decision (I don't have a job waiting for me back home yet...so I'll take the savings I can get, ya know? Twenty-something problems...) Originally, the biggest part of my reasoning, however, involved travel plans to Europe to visit my boyfriend, which brings me to 2...
2. I'm not in a relationship anymore. Before you go "ooooh..." relax. This was also, while obviously complicated, quite simple. I decided I wasn't able to handle long distance while knowing that I really want my life to be in the States. Specifically in southern California. My geographical certainty was too strong to weigh against the ambiguous nature of a long distance relationship. That's all. No drama, no hysterics. Just simple reality.
This is how it is for those who travel. It's part of the unique and transient life for those who want to see more than their backyard. You have to accept this. It isn't the case for everyone, but...well..it's the case for many.
3. Speaking of transient...I'm going to leave China at the end of September, but will take a bit more time to travel before arriving home. Travel is a siren to me. I am on a side of the world that I have never been before. And once I leave, who knows how long it will take me to get back here. "There are no guarantees in life" is something you always hear but never listen to; the opportunity for a bit more travel is right in front of me. I'm not guaranteed that opportunity again. I might chase after the slimmest chance of travel, but hey, what if it happens that somehow I don't find my way back to this continent? So I will arrive home in early October with the traveler's equivalent to a runner's high.